# From Desperate to Developer.

6 months ago,  I found myself in a very dark depressed place which had been more complicated by COVID-19 and an inability to find medical help mentally or for the daily chronic pain I live with attributable to my military service. 

Though I have a social net provided by veterans affairs, I have been deemed to have a diminished earning capacity from injuries and holding down a "normal" job has proven impossible. 

 As a person who has known only back breaking work and 16-18hr days for 30 years I couldn't wrap my head around not being able to bring in income through physical jobs so I pushed and pushed but each time would be met by harsh realities that physically my body would shut down for 2-3days after one 12 hr day...  
Desperation began to set in and I gambled on cryptocurrency with absolutely no clue what I was doing, scam after scam after scam and I would hit bottom...again... I have been here before with fighting , Alcohol, Pain killers , gambling.  

It was this self-realization that I was just coping with everything in a self destructive manner once again , I was able to rely on the army mentality to "shut your brain off and go -regardless of the situation" this time it would motivate me to jump full time into learning software development through many different resources .

It wasn't just about employment,
 but a way to retrain my body and brain through self discipline and organization to achieve attainable clearly defined goals.

In that time I have completed numerous certifications in different programming languages and continue by diving into web3 full stack development. Through complete immersion I become a sponge , and in 6 months I have come from absolutely no skills to putting in 8-12 hrs a day  and continually working on projects and completing multiple different programs.  
As well, I am creating own NFT collections as an artistic venture to cope with stress and pain as well to gain further experience and hopefully attribute to society again through development.